This Might Not Work

My chances are already starting to fade...
What should I have expected?
Why?
Why are you so fixated on this guy who
Is practically abandoning you?
Do you know what "taking a break"
means for a relationship?
Whoever asks means they flat out don't*
want to see or hear from you.
You deserve better than that.
He's likely going to see other girls.
So you shouldn't think about him so highly.
I want to support you as best I can.
I want to help you stand when he left you hanging
But you only want to accept his hand.
I commend your loyalty
But why waste time on someone*
who doesn't show it in return?

I'll never understand this.
I learned I'm not fit to be a doctor
And I'm starting to see
I'm not fit for you or anyone else
I'm just a doormat
A footstep towards someone "better"
And I saw all of this play out
Exactly as I predicted
I wanted a different outcome
I fought for something better
I took action
But...
No matter how much I came out of my shell
Talked when I could have stayed silent
Or tried to change and open up
It's never good enough
I'm never good enough
Why am I even alive?
There is no happy ending for me
This depression was never meant to be temporary
It's all part of our "benevolent" God's plan
My only role in this world:
Help others feel what I never will.

I just want to die.
It's the only other thing I'm meant for after all.

what the hell did I just read bruther?

Great poem!

Suicide note? that's my first thought?

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Originally Posted by Bulzeeb

My only role in this world:
Help others feel what I never will.

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pk. i don't fully understand what this is about.
but i'm going to take this line out here.

try to feel happy that you're helping others. it's a great thing to do. And at least be glad you can make people's lifes better.

Quote:

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Originally Posted by jibjqrkl

pk. i don't fully understand what this is about.
but i'm going to take this line out here.

try to feel happy that you're helping others. it's a great thing to do. And at least be glad you can make people's lifes better.

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I don't get the whole thing bruther. Is this the +10 thing bruther?

A relationship filled with drugs and abuse is preferred over me.

A long distance relationship where her other doesn't want to see or hear her is preferred over me.

What chance in hell do I have at finding happiness if I come up second against that kind of competition?

I hope you end up feeling better, I really do. Just remember that there are plenty of people here that are here to talk if you ever need it.

Quote:

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Originally Posted by Bulzeeb

A relationship filled with drugs and abuse is preferred over me.

A long distance relationship where her other doesn't want to see or hear her is preferred over me.

What chance in hell do I have at finding happiness if I come up second against that kind of competition?

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Is that all bruther... Let me tell you a little about this little thing called love bruther. Love is weird dude. Women are weird dude. There is no competition bruther. If she really wants to be with you bruther then she will come dude. If not then there is plenty of fish in the sea dude.

Don't sweat it bruther. You're awesome and don't let anyone tell you different bruther. I've been there and done that bruther. If she prefers drugs and abuse over you then get away from here dude and find a woman with class, like Sarah :)... All jokes aside bruther, don't sweat it. You'll find that special someone one day bruther. Just be patience and talk to us bruther.