This Might Not Work
My chances are already starting to fade...
What should I have expected?
Why are you so fixated on this guy who
Is practically abandoning you?
Do you know what "taking a break"
means for a relationship?
Whoever asks means they flat out don't*
want to see or hear from you.
You deserve better than that.
He's likely going to see other girls.
So you shouldn't think about him so highly.
I want to support you as best I can.
I want to help you stand when he left you hanging
But you only want to accept his hand.
I commend your loyalty
But why waste time on someone*
who doesn't show it in return?
I'll never understand this.
I learned I'm not fit to be a doctor
And I'm starting to see
I'm not fit for you or anyone else
I'm just a doormat
A footstep towards someone "better"
And I saw all of this play out
Exactly as I predicted
I wanted a different outcome
I fought for something better
I took action
No matter how much I came out of my shell
Talked when I could have stayed silent
Or tried to change and open up
It's never good enough
I'm never good enough
Why am I even alive?
There is no happy ending for me
This depression was never meant to be temporary
It's all part of our "benevolent" God's plan
My only role in this world:
Help others feel what I never will.
I just want to die.
It's the only other thing I'm meant for after all.