You shouldn't let this bad experience from trying again with another woman. Sure this experience left a scar and it hurts real bad, but trust me not all women are like that.
Right now you probably don't agree with me, but give it time. Find new hobbies and things to do to pass the time. Try to see your friends more, take up a new job. These are all ideas to make you think about other things.
As everyone here have already said, suicide is never the answer and trust me, a LOT of people would miss you.